an old friend

I had such a good conversation with an old, not-too-often-seen friend today. At one point she was talking about when people ask you questions just so they can talk about themselves. Instantly I wondered if she ever thought I did that and I became more aware of how much I talk about myself with others instead of listening to them and being interested in them. We talked about having children at one point in the conversation and I commented on how much having a baby threw me for a loop, since I had previously really liked devoting my time to me. Later on in the day I reflected on how much of my life still revolves around me. I think about things that relate to how I feel, what I want, what I'm interested in, what I think is important. Then, when others want to talk about things that don't relate to me, I easily tune out.

Another sad point, I was thinking about how I had realized this propensity (don't you love euphemisms?) in myself and what a good thing it was that I could now recognize it and fight it. Then I thought about how most likely I'll be repeating this same sin over and over again, never having finally mastered it. Well, at least on earth.

What a great day it will be when I no longer give into sins and those not-too-often-seen friends will be with me all the time, praising our Lord together!